On Being Drunk. Again. *giggles*

[mrsronweasley]

Well, we celebrated Theresa's birthday today. Which is why I'm drunk. Wheeeeee! Am a happy drunk, that's fairly obvious. It's very fun, I have to say. Can't type very well, though... We bought a bottle of wine, and an 8 pack of Smirnoff Ice (I had two, as well as a glas of wine, and a shot of something or other). I'm woooooozy... The girls thought it was the funniest thing, and I am such a lightweight.

But in any case, I almost blurted out to Marie that I liked her. Again. I should not do that. However, I did hint at the fact that I haven't been feeling very heterosxual lately...which she thought was a good thing, but coming from a biased perspective. She is gay. I'm lucky that she is. But that still doesn't mean that anything will happen. In fact, I know it won't. I don't think I challenge her enough intellectually, which is what she is looking for. And she is not a needy person, meaning that she doesn't need someone else... And I have decided that the friendship is more important right now, to all of us. I don't want to fuck it up. So, I will keep my feelings to myself.

I just wish she wasn't so damn wonderful, and that I didn't want to kiss her so much. Arhg. Argh, rather.

IN any case, we had a wonderful day. We first went to the beach, sat there on the rocks., each one in her own little world. The waves were fucking enormous, and absoltuely gorgeous. It was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen. It got very cold, though, so we got up and began walking back towards the main town, and we could barely do it, because the wind was righ tin our faces and soooooooooo strong. Then, we looked for a nice coffee shop, while I suffered cramps, and finally ended up at some place where I got tea, just so I would feel better, and then went to this organic food place where Theresa could get free trade coffee, and Marie a vegan meal (she's allergic to everything under the sun, the poor girl). It was wonderful.

I adore this place. Can I just tell you? I am so fucking happy I am here. It was the best. I think I might come back here after I leave. I have to. it feels like home now.

In any case, then we went to the grocery store, then Theresa went to mass, the good Catholic girl that she is, and then at 8, we went to her place, with my stereo system, and had a small dinner, and a very large dessert, consisting of the two cakes we made yesterday. And wine. And Smirnoff Ice. And the shots. And it was fun - very very fun. And Marie rocks my world. *sigh*

I told Theresa that I like Marie. She thought it was very understandable, and that Marie has that alluring personality, and that she is cute as all hell. Which she is. She's beautiful. And has a lip ring. Heh.

Dammit. Ah, well. I'll be fine. I will be.

And I'm drunk right now. I'm the sort of drunk that will tell people that she loves them. I stopped at 'I do like you guys!'. They laughed at me. I laughed, too. I know people are stupid when they're drunk. but that was my plan for tonight. To get drunk.

I have succeeded.

I want Marie.

I really really want Marie.

I am going now.

Love to ALL.

P.S. Am I the only one who can't get onto the Quill?! I got on ONCE, and there was no one else on the boards, which never happens. Argh.

P.P.S. I think at some point I will devote a whole entry to Marie...just because I want to...