YAY! You went to the gym! That's fantastic! And, see, it felt good! I totally know what you mean about self-conscious - when I first started going at 250+ pounds I hadn't even Bought gym shoes in years. But pretty soon you get settled into a routine, and it Feeels Good (yes, I'm an exercise pusher :D ), and it's fantastic for psychological and emotional reasons as well as physical, and just... YAY gym!

Here's hoping you get time with the trainer pronto. I'd be happy to try to help, but I have feeling you'll take off quickly, help or no. Go YOU!