mrsronweasley | Blah, blah, blah...

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What to write, what to write...

See, I'm in this horrible angsty-for-no-reason and completely tired mood. I'm not sure why. I mean...yesterday's voice audition, yeah, that's there. I didn't tell my mom. She called last night, asked what's new, and I said 'nothing.' I couldn't tell her. This is the one thing that my parents, especially my dad, really want me to continue. When I told my dad I'd registered for a voice lesson, he was so happy. I can't bring myself to tell them yet. I told my sister, though, but we couldn't talk for long, because Maia was all fussy. She's more important, anyway.

By saying this I'm probably blowing all my chances of completing the thing, but in the past couple of weeks I've been obsessing over an idea for a story/novella/novel (not fanfiction) and I came up with the perfect opening line for it, and I'm starting to write it, but it's slow-going. I'm very bad with the thing you call 'plot' which, really, is crucial when writing something like a story. Or a novella. Or a novel. But still. We'll see what happens. Hopefully, I'll have time to work on it, too.

I'm also writing fanfic. That's looking like a small epic, as well. We shall see...

So, those are supposed to be good things, but they're filling me with all sorts of doubts, all sorts of worries and I know it's normal, but...but. Well, anyway.

How are you?

I feel like there are parts of my life that are slipping away, crucial bits, like beloved people, and I'm unable to stop it. It's like trying to hold onto sand. It isn't working, because it isn't in my power.

I'm tired, and this weather is getting to me. Yesterday was beautiful and sunny (and mild, for once!) and today is mild as well, but it's overcast and grey and ugly, and it's only February. A whole month and a half of this more. I need to move down south somewhere, really. Which is why, of course, I'm planning on going to Canada for grad school! That's good thinking. I know, I'm brilliant.

Well, I'm stopping now. Sorry. It's just a sad sort of day, I suppose.

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I'm sorry you're not feeling good about your audition. But there'll be other opportunities! It's not the end of your singing.

Otoh, I'm so glad you're obsessing over original fiction. That's the best thing to obsess over, in the end. Remember what I said about any original stuff. I've got something to send to you, but haven't been feeling brilliant over the weekend and was out at a concert last night, hence the delay. But it's looking fab, and I hope to have it back tomorrow.

I think you'd like Canada. It's got lots of consolations to offer to make up for its long winters. My only advice would be, visit the places you're considering before making your final choice. I didn't, and spent 18 months wishing I'd gone to another university.

It's not the end of your singing.

Oh, I hope not. That would be horrible. Ack.

Remember what I said about any original stuff.

Oh, trust me, I do! Of course, I have to actually get something written first, at least more than the single page I've got now. But I'm glad, too. I just need to figure more things out about it, and that sort of thing...

I've got something to send to you ... and I hope to have it back tomorrow.

Oh, yay! Thank you. I'm sorry I never replied to that email - it was just a 'meh' sort of weekend, and I didn't think it'd be good for me to reply to any emails. But thank you for taking the time. I'm going to send you more soon (it's typed up) and then, I'll have more questions on plot and stuff. Tralalala...

I just looked at the U of Toronto page. (Basically a glance, mostly at the fees...) I think I'd like it, too, despite the weather. (I mean, technically, I shouldn't bitch - I'm from Russia, right?) Canada just seems like a breath of fresh air after the stuffiness of America. And it's cheaper, also a plus. *g* Which university did you go to? Why was it so bad? (If you don't mind me asking...)

mwah!

The university I went to was ok, but I couldn't get used to being in such a small town in the middle of nowhere. There was another university in another city that I almost went to and in the end, for various reasons, I was so glad I didn't. I'll email you the details; I'm a wimp and don't want to offend any graduates or residents of those particular places.

U of T was where I wished I'd gone, because Toronto seemed a really nice city. I know I would have liked it there.

Oh, I know all about 'small towns in the middle of nowhere.' (Yes, oh dear university of mine, I'm talking to YOU.) It takes a while to get used to, and 18 months doesn't seem enough. So, I can commiserate. Toronto is a really nice city (I've only been for a collective two and a half days, but still...) and it's a CITY in CANADA, so it can't be all that bad! Still checking out the prices...

:)

one of my best friends did her MFA at U of T and she LOVED it there. she loved the city and the school and every thing about living there. mostly she loved the cheap (after Wellesley she NEEDED the cheap)... just look into it really well. go there for a week or so, talk to the people there. if you want I can give you my friend's email and a little introduction. Yay. liz is thinking positive thoughts!

Love you.

talk to you later.

Love and Parker,
Jo

and NO I was not trying to talk you into an MFA... just had to point that out... she was there for Art History, not studio... I will convince you to go to art school later, not tonight.

Love and Posey,
Jo

Okay, now I'm dying to know where you went. It sounds suspiciously like a certain Ontario school to me. This is going to drive me crazy...

You got the province right! You probably got the institution right, too. I'll confirm by email later (I'm still being a wimp.)

Oh, sweetie. *huggles a lot* This weekend - phoneage.

Fic, both original stuff and fannish, is a good thing. I will even go out on a limb and say that if you felt like sending them along when you've done a bit, like to a fussy nerd who happens to love you lots, then that would be appreciated, especially as said nerd happens to love suggesting impovements and encouraging more. So, y'know, that's an option if you'd like. :)

It's damn annoying how stressful writing is, though. O_O *kicks brain* Oh, and this picture is my visual representation of that kind of blah-y, morose kind of day. They need to be kicked too. (Although Johnny doesn't because he is beautiful.)

This weekend - phoneage.

Wheeeeee!

Thank you for the offer. You might very well see the consequences. ;) Right now, I'm just starting, so there isn't much to see. Wanna see my sentence?! Hehe, kidding.

I love your icon. I need more Johnny icons. He's just so wonderful...

*loves you lots*

Plot is overrated.

Right. I mean, just look at "Remains of the Day." Or something. :-P

I think I have a lunchbox from that movie somewhere.

I get days like that....when I just feel shitty for no realy reasom, but at the same time for every reason.

I love you though. Might not make that much of a difference, but true anyway.

Yeah, that's exactly it - no reason and every reason. Ugh.

I love you, too! And it helps to know that, so thank you for letting me know. ;)

MWAAAAAAAAH!

P.S. Did you know that that sign doesn't exist anymore? Yeah. Bastards!

Huh?!? WHAT!!!???

No more sigh? For all that's holy....WHY!?

Canada rules and so do our universities, come to the Great White North and enjoy the right to go topless in Ontario!

Wwwwwaitaminute. ~~Topless chicks~~Topfree rights, socialized medical care, quasi-legal weed, and gay marriages?! Why the fuck isn't Canada more crowded than Manhattan and L.A.'s bastard love child?

...Oh, that's right. We's too got damn po' to move. Got damn recession.

*packs a bag and plots to kidnap Liz*

I hope you gots room on your couch. We's-a comin' over!

Excellent! I'm totally in. No, really, Canada is awesome. People who make Canada jokes are stupid. Canada is teh cool! Heh.

*packs a bag*

I don't know why, but the fact that you have a perfect opening line made me smile. I hope you have time to work on it too! Keep us updated. :)

As for feeling as though bits of life are slipping away... I feel as though I haven't seen you guys in ages. :( I'm awful at keeping in touch - the last time I spoke to any of my high school friends was last June. It's so depressing, as is this nasty weather.

Canada for grad school sounds wonderful. It may be cold, but it's pretty, and people are nice. I keep wanting to run off to England for a Masters in Art History, but that's a bad idea (more school, not running off to England). :( I think I just really want to travel at the moment. This time last year, we were all freaking out over coming to London to see you. Insane.

Keep us updated. :)

I'll try! Let's hope there'll be something to keep you updated ON... :-P

I'm awful at keeping in touch, too. That's part of it, and another part is simply that some things end, and it's horrible, because you can't stop them from ending. I hate that feeling. And I feel I haven't seen anyone in ages, either, and I'm feeling a bit lonely. I really don't have many friends here. Besides the person I live with, I have no close friends here at all. Nobody who understands me as well as my friends do, nobody I can joke about the same things to, just...that sort of thing. It just gets to me sometimes, though mostly I try not to think about it.

And running off sounds wonderful! Though more school means more money, and stuff... Well, I'm heading that way. It's depressing, but it's my only option at this point, I think. Must spend money in order to make money someday. At least make enough to pay off the money I borrowed. :-P

I can't BELIEVE it's been a year since that. How depressing? Come March, it'll be REALLY depressing. Ok, not thinking about it. Again. :-P

Can we cheer you on on the writing front? As for grad school, seeing that most of your friends seem to be in Britain - why not come here?

And support for the changes - evolving as a person is tough.

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