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mrsronweasley) wrote2002-10-26 12:30 am
mrsronweasley) wrote2002-10-26 12:30 am
On The Continuing Weirdness of Life.
So, I've decided not to say anything to her. Perhaps ever. I don't think she'd return the feelings. Unfortunately, the feelings are still there. And this isn't the sort of thing where I just want to pounce on someone (think Glow Boy), but the 'I just really want to be with you' thing. For now, I will settle on just having her in my life - and on being in her life, for my part.
I wrote to my sister about this. She was a bit freaked out, though not judging. She's just going to have to get used to this. If it's not Marie, it just might be someone else in the future. I think she thought that I had renounced all men completely. She should be relieved to know that I haven't. I mean, this is me, for crying outloud. Me. I could never give up men. Unless I completely, crazily fell in love with a girl, and spent the rest of my life with her, of course. But seeing as how I don't plan on doing that with anyone, at least not in the foreseeable future, it still seems highly unlikely.
In any case, I have definitely been doing a lot of thinking. Maybe this is just a crush. Maybe it'll go away. Maybe it won't. But I don't think I will risk the friendship. However, I will keep the promise that I made you. I will.
On a completely different note, Richard Harris is dead. Dead. He was recovering, and now he's dead. As in, gone. As in, no more. That's just...very very sad. He was not my ideal Dumbledore, by any means, but...but...he's dead now. And he will never again be Dumbledore. And it's crazy, but I was reading a story where Dumbledore was mentioned, and immediately thought: "But he's dead!" Weird, eh?
And, apparently, it's SBRL's 2nd birthday! That is pretty damn cool.
A woman was shot trying to escape from that godforsaken theatre in Moscow. Her fingers were crushed - they shot her in the chest. She was 20. My age.
They let some kids go today, but the foreigners are still in there. As are the Russians. They have separated everyone by gender and race. They haven't received either food or water, and have been using the orchestra pit as a toilet.
I hate this world sometimes. And I really hate the people that make it the way it is.
I wrote to my sister about this. She was a bit freaked out, though not judging. She's just going to have to get used to this. If it's not Marie, it just might be someone else in the future. I think she thought that I had renounced all men completely. She should be relieved to know that I haven't. I mean, this is me, for crying outloud. Me. I could never give up men. Unless I completely, crazily fell in love with a girl, and spent the rest of my life with her, of course. But seeing as how I don't plan on doing that with anyone, at least not in the foreseeable future, it still seems highly unlikely.
In any case, I have definitely been doing a lot of thinking. Maybe this is just a crush. Maybe it'll go away. Maybe it won't. But I don't think I will risk the friendship. However, I will keep the promise that I made you. I will.
On a completely different note, Richard Harris is dead. Dead. He was recovering, and now he's dead. As in, gone. As in, no more. That's just...very very sad. He was not my ideal Dumbledore, by any means, but...but...he's dead now. And he will never again be Dumbledore. And it's crazy, but I was reading a story where Dumbledore was mentioned, and immediately thought: "But he's dead!" Weird, eh?
And, apparently, it's SBRL's 2nd birthday! That is pretty damn cool.
A woman was shot trying to escape from that godforsaken theatre in Moscow. Her fingers were crushed - they shot her in the chest. She was 20. My age.
They let some kids go today, but the foreigners are still in there. As are the Russians. They have separated everyone by gender and race. They haven't received either food or water, and have been using the orchestra pit as a toilet.
I hate this world sometimes. And I really hate the people that make it the way it is.
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Richard Harris dying is just... it seems wrong, after he was recovering. I feel so sorry for his poor family and friends.
I was reading about the situation with the Chechen rebels in the threatre, and it's definitely enough to make you pissed off at the world. It sucks unbelieveably that that kind of thing happens. And when someone so young dies...
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thank you. :) we'll see what happens. but i definitely think i'm going to need that good luck.
*hugs*
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