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[mrsronweasley]

Because I have designated this Sunday as 'the day I don't do shit to avoid feeling like shit because I'm not doing anything', I'm doing that thing again, where I ask you to come out and play with me:

Leave a comment anonymously: tell me a joke, tell me about your day, tell me you love me, tell me you hate me, tell me who you really love, and who you really hate. Anything goes. Because wasting time is what Sundays were made for.

And feel totally free to do the same on your own LJ.

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[mrsronweasley.livejournal.com]

I...hmm. See, the thing is, I wouldn't wish myself on anybody. I am extremely flattered, and at the same time, scared, because... what you said here:

objectively I know I am doing more than most people I know, but still.

Is the biggest difference ever. You're DOING something. You're accomplishing things. And I cannot tell you how fucking important that is. Me, I'm in stasis right now. Hopefully, not for long, but while I'm here, there are days when I feel like I want to run away and never come back. It's such a horrible feeling. It's terrifying, in fact. Nothing makes up for it.

I am so flattered and thank you for your compliments. But please don't ever think that you want to be me for even a day. Believe me when I say, you don't, not even on my best days. Mostly because lately, my best days have largely consisted of not crying. That's a bad way to live.

I...yeah. I know how much it sucks to not feel good about yourself, and I wish I could take that away from you. And I hope that someday soon, you will learn to appreciate yourself as much as others clearly do. *HUGS*