Blah, blah, blah...
Feb. 3rd, 2004 11:50 amWhat to write, what to write...
See, I'm in this horrible angsty-for-no-reason and completely tired mood. I'm not sure why. I mean...yesterday's voice audition, yeah, that's there. I didn't tell my mom. She called last night, asked what's new, and I said 'nothing.' I couldn't tell her. This is the one thing that my parents, especially my dad, really want me to continue. When I told my dad I'd registered for a voice lesson, he was so happy. I can't bring myself to tell them yet. I told my sister, though, but we couldn't talk for long, because Maia was all fussy. She's more important, anyway.
By saying this I'm probably blowing all my chances of completing the thing, but in the past couple of weeks I've been obsessing over an idea for a story/novella/novel (not fanfiction) and I came up with the perfect opening line for it, and I'm starting to write it, but it's slow-going. I'm very bad with the thing you call 'plot' which, really, is crucial when writing something like a story. Or a novella. Or a novel. But still. We'll see what happens. Hopefully, I'll have time to work on it, too.
I'm also writing fanfic. That's looking like a small epic, as well. We shall see...
So, those are supposed to be good things, but they're filling me with all sorts of doubts, all sorts of worries and I know it's normal, but...but. Well, anyway.
How are you?
I feel like there are parts of my life that are slipping away, crucial bits, like beloved people, and I'm unable to stop it. It's like trying to hold onto sand. It isn't working, because it isn't in my power.
I'm tired, and this weather is getting to me. Yesterday was beautiful and sunny (and mild, for once!) and today is mild as well, but it's overcast and grey and ugly, and it's only February. A whole month and a half of this more. I need to move down south somewhere, really. Which is why, of course, I'm planning on going to Canada for grad school! That's good thinking. I know, I'm brilliant.
Well, I'm stopping now. Sorry. It's just a sad sort of day, I suppose.
See, I'm in this horrible angsty-for-no-reason and completely tired mood. I'm not sure why. I mean...yesterday's voice audition, yeah, that's there. I didn't tell my mom. She called last night, asked what's new, and I said 'nothing.' I couldn't tell her. This is the one thing that my parents, especially my dad, really want me to continue. When I told my dad I'd registered for a voice lesson, he was so happy. I can't bring myself to tell them yet. I told my sister, though, but we couldn't talk for long, because Maia was all fussy. She's more important, anyway.
By saying this I'm probably blowing all my chances of completing the thing, but in the past couple of weeks I've been obsessing over an idea for a story/novella/novel (not fanfiction) and I came up with the perfect opening line for it, and I'm starting to write it, but it's slow-going. I'm very bad with the thing you call 'plot' which, really, is crucial when writing something like a story. Or a novella. Or a novel. But still. We'll see what happens. Hopefully, I'll have time to work on it, too.
I'm also writing fanfic. That's looking like a small epic, as well. We shall see...
So, those are supposed to be good things, but they're filling me with all sorts of doubts, all sorts of worries and I know it's normal, but...but. Well, anyway.
How are you?
I feel like there are parts of my life that are slipping away, crucial bits, like beloved people, and I'm unable to stop it. It's like trying to hold onto sand. It isn't working, because it isn't in my power.
I'm tired, and this weather is getting to me. Yesterday was beautiful and sunny (and mild, for once!) and today is mild as well, but it's overcast and grey and ugly, and it's only February. A whole month and a half of this more. I need to move down south somewhere, really. Which is why, of course, I'm planning on going to Canada for grad school! That's good thinking. I know, I'm brilliant.
Well, I'm stopping now. Sorry. It's just a sad sort of day, I suppose.