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Thank you for the kind words yesterday. It was just such a shock to the system. I mean, May 9th is a really big fuckin' deal, especially if you've grown up with it, and people fucking with that is just... and how... anyway, moving on, don't want to think about it... (One last thought: my mom's in Russia right now. That's another reason for a big freak out.)

I don't know why, but I'm having one of those days where you can't really move well. It's like moving through water, and I have no energy, and I don't know how to get it, and I have so many things I need to do, and I have five finals to study for, and my hands are having a difficult time lifting.

Ok, I just realized why. I spent almost the entire day playing with Maia yesterday, most of which involved me carrying her around, throwing her in the air, and holding her up as she attempted to stand for a really really long time. And pushing her baby carriage down and up a hill. Gotcha. I needed a nap halfway through yesterday (and I actually DID pass out right in my sister's living room at one point), and now I have a new-found respect for mothers everywhere, because if this was just one day, then actually being a mother must have you on autopilot for five to six years. Good lord. More power to you.

In any case, I can expect much more of this once I'm actually done with exams and babysitting her for four days. But she's so amazing, I don't really mind. As long as I can sleep for a week afterwards.

Right, now...back to Ecology...

P.S. Emails - coming SOON, I promise. I shall do my best.